March 10, 2007

Not too bad yet

TMI ALERT!

I seem not to be hemorrhaging yet. That's a good sign. Ever since surgery, my periods have started out incredibly heavy (as in .75oz every 60-90 minutes for about 24-36 hrs). It would be so nice to know that's not my new normal.

On the not-TMI front, yesterday after I told him that my temp had dropped so he knew we *still* weren't pregnant, my dearest husband had to sit in the car for a good 10 minutes before going into the office. Frown Oh, I so wish I could give him the child he longs for. I feel like an utter failure that I cannot, since it's my body that doesn't work. In my darkest moments, I wonder why God let him marry me when such disappointment would lie ahead for him. Dan deserves to be a daddy, even if I may not deserve to be a mommy (though it's my deepest desire).

Posted by lawwife at 20:57:42 | Permanent Link | Comments (1) |
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1 - i remember feeling the way you do about Dan...and we hadn't struggled nearly as long as you already have. Good thing God knows better than we do, and that children are never given to anyone because they deserve them. If they were you'd have a dozen already - at least. You're going to be a fantastic mama one day. Don't ever stop believing. (Comment this)

Written by: Bren at 2007/03/11 - 00:11:42
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